Sun rerises as normal, but heart never sinks.

last night i treated my baby son and his mom as scheduled, after waiting my girl zhou in vain. she had left my sight for about more than 4 days, in which i sought wilderly. my heart turns hard upon her evading me, my memory fixed on the prime time when she strided in her white short coat and waving so loveable long legs. my girl zhou fiddles me with her hide-and-see, each time when i crying for pains in my heart in missing her, she winked like mirage in seconds just throw me more into her influence, and then dead silence. last night i waited to greet her in front of QRRS HQ as usual, then baby's mom buzzed in. we arranged meeting up under my office, when i waiting in chill on the place she once bought icecream with her colleague and we first eyes' contacted, she in her white coat which inspired me so much, arranged 2 men and a female walked arms in arms just to show me her tricky and naughty. after i gathered with baby son and his mom, after chilled outside for more than a quarter&trembled on the bus stop, the restaurant was full of customers. so i suggested going to my dorm to rest some time. baby there enjoyed a game i just got from web. when we returned to the restaurant, a tall girl with cordial face looked straight into us. she was palled with 2 men and a female. i felt she must has a link with my girl zhou, but i felt my girl should more gifted than her. so i joined the war with the half raw lamb steak at once, with small knife, chopsticks and my own teeth. 

after dinner, i hold baby son into the KFC Tiedong franchise, where a cop in uniform lingered there but don't eat but all time roaming, and also peeked when baby son played game on my notebook. when we dined in the restaurant serves fried mutton, a neighbor dog, a mature but young beast tentatively poked baby's head when baby don't eat and let by his mom to change to outer chair and played on the chair. baby son puzzled, but informed by the adversity. i at once told baby that's a dog, and life time task to kill dog, ie, cop, mafia, bureaucracy, for our family in title of zhu. i told baby the dog already dead, and God knows when its corpse disappear on the earth that belongs to us, in God's shine. in daily tweet of yesterday, i assigned the killing to Masheng, to her special force squad to accomplish the slaughter. nothing can lay a touch upon my Royal, the Royal of China as well as God's.

today its the second bright day since the shallow snow last weekends. blood had already spilt over the drought land over-crowded with ants and mice. God, i never enjoy killing except glory drives it aimlessly. killing in ur name is just a cake, funny but not meaningful. the only bright in my heart is my girls, my beloved. in every scent i can sniff, i track the veil and vein from my Queens in my Royal. God, let ur bright forever cover me, cover my heart fully. 

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20/1/2010

dined with baby son&his mom.^last night dined with baby son. a dog behind him tentatively poked baby's head when baby playing on his chair. kill the dog at once&told baby the death. Masheng, let ur special action squad do it, slaughter the dog insulting at once. got up lately after 8am. its again a bright day in brilliant sunshine. posted recent photos.

19/1/2010

dreamed of lunar new year.^dreamed of celebrating lunar new year with my girl, almost sexed but hold for my girl zhou as God lets. Its snowing in dawn, likely since last night but don't cover ground thick.

18/1/2010

busy day with baby's sites. missing my girl zhou again.^got up around 7am&went to office among crowd of QRRSers. fine tuned baby's profile. my girl don't appear in noon break. claimed&fine tuned baby's homepage on google sites in afternoon. gave up till near 5pm. went to receive my girl zhou, but again can't find her. treated myself with beaf pies&mutton soup in a restaurant near office after the monday. all night in dorm reviewing my love with my girl zhou.

17/1/2010

just refined my old blog at 163.com (http://benzillar.blog.163.com ) when last night God recalled it in front. got additional one for the predecided (http://bentchu.blog.163.com ). all done in God's shine.
Masheng, i hope i will marry my girl zhou before the lunar lantern Day. hope u can settle our trip to my hometown, where my folks will witness the glory of my dad and his son. pl join me sooner, as u know.
idle in the morning. launched at office to refined baby's sites, domain setup, Google apps setup, etc. finished after 5pm, then visit the local church&listening the preach. talked to the clerk after it over&expressed thanks. met a girl likely my girl zhou but with hairs reshaped. returned dorm baby let her mom buzzed in. its just so attending God shown. niece also tried to contact me to borrow money for her professional license, but later gave up.

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love of father, love of son, love of girl

sad dawn dream.got wired via QRRS.^in dawn dreamed of baby less happy with my living my new life, a bit part from him. God, never let me live apart from my baby son, God of Universe, lives me with live source from him within me, live us together forever in one. live us the hardest likes diamond in Trinity. got up at 7:33am, after wondered on bed in early wakeup. arrived office around 8am, QRRS' lan wire already installed, but ip await granting Internet access. visit the director&express obligation. read ebook of Germany philosophist Heidegger while waiting for Internet. got wired to Internet finally aroud 9:45am, now its my works to compliment delayed posts in these days waiting for new working environment in my QRRS office after got assurance from the high rank of QRRS. greet my girl zhou in noon break as usual but with especial new start, she also first time leaps when she passing my office on way returning to QRRS. nothing can express my thanks and being beloved from my girl zhou's envoy. i admire her sooooo much. surfed all time in office, fine tuned my 163 profile&homepage there. clear half of feeds that unread within my google reader. the dispisable China authority hacked google's server farm in Shanghai office&spying their patanted codes, threaten all Chinese google admirers now that google considering postphone their operation in China for evil in China mainland is against their corporate moral. shits! when gone the dirty and really freaky China authority? the numberable darks on the earth, likes shits that humiliate global civilization? yes, its my family's duty to overturn the dark and evil on the scarry land of China. its me and my family, Royal of China, to overtune the sick and ill mind of China as a periphery of my grand ancestor sice Ming Dynasty. left office on time at 3pm. roamed in dorm talking to my girl zhou, who want me picking her indifference her pose. dined on time at 4pm&went to receive my girl at once. its an early spring, as i was reminded when i jog in front of the QRRS headquarter, where hosts quite some evil eyes, likely including high ranks. there is no respct among the elder on China mainland, the dirty porter brewing any fresh into rotten&foul, except my God, my passed dad, the Founder of coming Ming dynasty lasts 1109 years. when its time for QRRSers leaving for home, a girl in white with similiar figure as my girl zhou attracted my sight for quite some time, let me doubting if my girl changed her coat mid way in afternoon and picked the other way as the alien girl chose. but i waited till the radio of QRRS broadcasting songs, of which the first one is a male singer sings misery of love, after finished news of QRRS, i was touched immediately&prepared missing my girl in the so likes unlucky dusk, but then my girl zhou, tearsbreakingly&weepswipingly beaming appeared, among her male colleagues. i stood till her was almost packed by those male QRRSer into a car, and haunted over and around till sure she left the mini-plaza of QRRS front gate by car. on the way in dark lamps, i murmured in heart, my dear, i never closer to u than this moment, for God let me show my wines of persistence, God shown me how u attending me, attending my appeal for u. on half way i originally tend to choose the half way i route between office&dorm, but God let me straight to the cross way and look out if my girl she left the car and drop me there herself alone first time. in office review the scene when i waiting for my girl in front of the QRRS HQ, reviewed my love with my girl zhou. haunted out on 6:30pm as Masheng lets, visiting the cross way my girl can appear. bought myself canned fruits, susage&wine on way to dorm. enjoyed the food&buzzed baby son to suggest them to him. he gladly allow me to buy him the food in next gathering. its so nice a day. i missing my girl so much! in this lonely night and this lonely room. God, don't i live in arms of my bride now? live now in my girl's dream tonight? don't i tear my beloved all night in every silent and single moment? don't i own the whole world of the continent thats beautiful? don't i m ur only son among the human? don't i talk with u in last night dream in ur Heaven, my hometown? don't i live with u, my dearest son, my grand passed dad, all u in one, as my own? God, don't u touched by my thanks with wilder joys in ur the Holy? don't u assure me and my followers mirage exactly in my arms? don't u laid bliss on every scent of my beloved girls, esp. my girl zhou's pillar? God, don't u picked the brightest star and decorated my girls' hairs with its starry? God, let me cry for ur love, cry for being in ur love, cry for the Heaven i saw and felt so far in the love of and with my girl zhou.

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now i have my own domain, warozhu.com

my dad gain it as my new year's present. visit me at http://warozhu.com or http://forum.warozhu.com . glad to see there.

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first step toward growing Royal of China.

these days in hell. after i bought some grocer and 2 meals, i turned penniless. the high rank in QRRS, my once and long time employer, promised to apply for me some aid from the company, upon i asked his lending of ￥3000, for he honors the same family name, Zhou, as my 3rd wife, my girl Zhou. today likely the 3rd day i live without a coin. lunch and dinner were borrowed, complains turning thick now. and mafia, which thick on this dirty land, smells lure and turns agile. meaningless persons spit me, likes the mouse turn herds and active before earthquake. my blogging also threatened, for i can't find socket to connect to the web. the room i was settled was bare, no cable TV, no adsl. even there i can't find a desk or bench to write on my notebook. there is 3 dorms in the company, my first night after left baby's mother's house was slept in dorm 2, where lan, adsl, cable TV, all equipped, but i was just rearranged to the prison alike room 214 in dorm 3, after the department i once worked brought me together to contact with the administrator of the dorms. the bullhead of the admin defied my request to stay in dorm 2 definitely, flies can darken the sky.

  

Today its a brilliant day. the sunshine after 2 snow days turns clear and clean, since dawn. i envisaged my finance support from my Empire of China, as well as from Japanese Ministry of Reservation, both bulky and consistent arriving, the world of God's Son never deficit nor arid. dog's interference long time before 2 weeks ago broke through and the channel of resources under my total commanding, also under commanding of my God, my Sun, my Japanese Princess, my Crowned Queen, Masheng. This is my command now. i need living support, including resettlement fund to equip myself new mobile, shaver, white wine, clothing, and all things smoothing my lingering here toward my new marriage around this year end, with my girl Zhou. Masheng sees it, and acts with full author and authority. if Masheng think our marriage ripe, i can live with her, my second wife and Crowned Queen of China, in Japan for some years. I love Japan, that needless to say.

last afternoon i traveled Heaven, with my God, my dearest baby son, and his mother, emakingir. its our first gathering since my step into my growing Royal of China. baby son had several times in weak tone when i buzzed in and talked to him before the event. in the afternoon i see with greatest sure the brightest future of my mission on the earth, my reclaim of my Empire of China, brings definitely perfect solution in the end, with positive echoes all around on the planet. i see definitely the shine of God, in Heaven, in the tiny KFC franchise where my first family treat themselves for the first real name remission from my girl Masheng. life bound with Japan, Taiwan, and the transitional administration of China forged stronger than ever.

Today likely a faultless day. with so many kills at once the offensive. with so many dead to death. i ever eager to look forward the New Year's Day when i will treat baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China, God of Universe, with western style toast in Golden Hans buffet we haunted once. i also looking forward to my 3rd marriage with my girl Zhou appeared so many times in QRRS rush time. i really really can't wait to see all my beloved girls. my new life has to commence in the beginning of 2010.

God, in ur glory and in ur shine, i thank u for such a splendid day today.

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posted a blog for recent buffet tour. its a gloomy afternoon.

life span and rhythm likely speedier and more frequent when its near year's end. today i here wrote my 3rd post within weeks about my life, to accompany family recent photos shot when we dine out in a buffet. ema and I scheduled it for months, back to when i got a bonus of ￥100 from QRRS, likely for the International Journalist Day, for I once worked as crew of the cable TV branch of the company. baby just recovered from his recent heat, likely God just let him staying home to prevent the evil grandma to steal my inner clothes. He got heat in Thursday night, then stayed home for 2 days otherwise should join his kindergarten till weekend. in the Saturday dawn, i dreamed of my girl Zhou visited me, just when the evil grandma's dirty cold lingered on me in half-woke. I then had a good time with my girl Zhou, i search on the web for so long, till dawn light baptised me. then i got up earlier than usual, and be the first got up among family members, to busy on my cyberspace business. baby son while woke up urinated in quilt, first time he does and let his mom in fuss. its a special moment for me, for its my first time meeting my beloved in semi-consciousness and made love. but i didn't wet myself for we, my Royal of China, never home-stay in profaned situation.

in the buffet, i treated myself lots of coffee, after enough meat. its also my first time dining in western style, ie, with fork, knife, and spoon. i quite enjoy it. when i went to fetch my favorite food, i mistakenly took a plate to load some porridge, i at once was remind of the hard time in western history movie when people ate soup from sallow dish. ema correct my mistake. i later ate lots of porridge in cups. that's really delicious. amid the dinner, ema complained my full and no appetite to later dishes, i reviewed the buffet, and imaging the open kitchen of google. SIGH, when google's office kitchen can prevail the world likes its better than free services! when working people enjoy open and free buffet like free communication in air or on land or online, like freedom of speech, just for we r citizen of the earth!!!

this week more balanced. after settled family google voice and wave accounts, i enjoy more leisure time to read technical news via my subscriptions. google's chrome os no doubt let me in wonder. i wouldn't hesitate a second if its available for me to replace windows. i really hated the fragile security of windows, and everywhere spying or hacking behaviors in the world, esp. the dogs dominating China.

Today is again a bright day, i enjoy the warmth and brilliant sun ray since the morning. in dawn, those domestic sites blocking my posting last night turns speedy now, i too busy with posting history items to complain how many of my life wasted among lagging surf and filtered or invisibly delayed or banned posting, which turns in these months more rampant than ever. i had times told my baby son, the Hope of China and God of universe, the China authority dying in fear, and our Empire merging in dawn light from God's shine against clearer western background as basement and ground works. and time for my reunification with my beloved, my girls, turning cloudless clear.

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life of anxiousless. got heat again last night.

since last time got heat 2 weeks ago, i enjoyed kindergarten life so far so much. every night its fixedly game time. dad and me passed through many breathtaking moments with those great pc games. i also pick the habit to watch baby program on CCTV-1, a Chinese monopoly media company, which totally banned animations from overseas. dad frequently sneers the quality of domestic baby channels, but we really don't have rich options. via some downloadable p2p source dad got some Taiwanese baby educational dvds, which had been my favorite videos in the past, but now lagging Internet download speed under Chinese Internet dogs' filtering forced us to choose, on which we don't regard favorable with newer update from the publication comparing games.

however, that sorry news don't upset me a lot. creative mind and variable entertainments don't leave me a second. dad now enjoy games very much, and sometimes i can leave him alone to game. but i still need to ask him to launch game, for if he can choose from the world he waiting for and the virtual world of game, he always choose the former.

Ok, its a nice morning. my feet turn cold in several days. last night i got heat again. so this morning the grandma again came over to watch me at home. dad hope i recover soon. so is the world of mine. 

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the second snow in northeastern China, family life likes river floats.

this is a unexpected post, for latest post just days ago. however, baby recently had a haircut and a bath, which delayed 2 weeks for his heat, too wonderful to miss, just amid the second snow of 2009 in this eccentric northeastern China city.

this week i finally got my google wave, a powerful real time collaborative online publish tool. there r already bulks of talk about the breakthrough the google new service brought, but in my view, its a kind of tool let everyone readily and easily setup a personal forum or chatroom. its really helpful, esp. for a Chinese, who is used to limit their opinions or intimacy within small private groups or forums. that’s why in China forum ran so long and still a main social media for most of Chinese Internet users. the freak of China authority also likes to see the limited spread of information as well as public opinions, felt safe trapped them in forums which mostly close and membership required to join communications there. the most popular instant message tool, QQ, also set many limits one can own a group, and the size of the group, and needless to say the backend harsh keywork censorship and event logging for the police.

its a long time when i waiting for my google wave, but its too soon to see it grows into ripe. the speed of communication on Internet likely turns more concurrent, google wave surely shown the trend, but still its public page/url based allow more solitary and worthwhile consolidation of knowledge and its improvements. looking into its future, i really feel quite bright. it rightly paves the gap between blog and instant message, results into a moderner publication media.

last week is a more or less miserable week, for i in 2 or 3 days busy in office, where the shit monitor absent for his father-in-law bought a new house, and took him there to help decoration, so the corporate lan wire he occupied can be adopted by me. so i missed waiting and saluting to the tall girl likely newly employed by QRRS, my once and long time employer. the weather also pale, let me felt gloomy. but now, the second snow surely kills, kills the evil and destroys the spies and surveillance cast over me and my Royal of China. i hope i led to the girl steadily, and God grant my beloved sooner joining my new life in this year end.

baby son these days tentatively increases threshold to bail me from approaching or kissing him, who likely contented or was encouraged to show contented with affection from his mother and his mother’s family. his mother, emakingir, indeed very cheap, tries all means to cater to baby son’s sometimes unreasonable dependence, to smother him in her poison love soups. that’s all her and her family’s plot to evil convert my baby son into their heir. God sees what a laugh it can be.

last night i taught baby and his mom another lesson, when ema clanged to a hot TV series nowadays on CCTV, the monopoly domestic media, that China nowadays’ authority, CCP, mainly got their fortune from being a soldier, so long history of the republic bragging worker, including soldier, and defames scientists as a group. but the world of citizen all animals, none left in the end of their lives, except scientists and knowledge they gathered. baby first refused to sleep alone me, amid his parents, but later did after quite some silent moment echoing my powerful comment.

OK, its time to bid farewell. my dear girls, Masheng, zhou, Taiwan girl, Lü and Jiang, i badly need ur love in this boring season. my road here seemingly leading me toward the girl in my once work unit, but my eyes wide open, my palace spaciously empty for u. i wide and bewilderingly searching u from the vast starry sky. closer to me, my God, my beloved!

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lots of games.

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these days i was attracted by recent larger games very much. visiting uncle accompany me playing these games. dad latest also join me to play and thankful for gaming is his long time dream. we never try online game, but dad hope i can enjoy them when i grow up and independent.

these days i also join kindergarten. mom chose senting me to dad’s once employer’s subside kindergarten, for it runs for quite some years and the facilities strong. we also got grant from the company, as part of its employee’s wellfare. i so far don’t loathe to join my class every morning.

Ok, now i suggest my recent photos of my bath. dad don’t miss any chance to make record of my activites, for as he once told me, he just want never regret for the passing of golden times in our lives, for i m so brilliant.

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a great Mid-Autumn Day vacation with wild games



these days dad started to try larger and newer games, now that we r equipped a powerful notebook, an Acer AS4736g. dad like the game “Front line: fuel of war” at once, but he likes to play with right mood, while i always insatiable for completing a games in a puff. so later i finished the game with my visiting uncle, let dad at a loss.

these days i also tried using scissor to cut paper. i retouched my paintings posted by dad last time, with ease paste icons. so here dad again publish them.

OK, its time for sports. mom asked me to haunt outside with football now. hope dad got his girls sooner. i love to see his new family with all his favorite hostess.

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  baby just haunted outside with his grandma, while i busy with posting his recent paintings, as well as my recent photos.then his mother bathed him even there is a boy student receiving ema’s tutorial here. i dislike ema don’t pay attention to privacy but God shows me it doesn’t matter.its a warm Autumn dusk, bright and dry sunshine through the window of our balcony cast a loveable and moving family peace in the house.

 

Ps: i also just got showered in public bathroom. a nice weekend.

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